Blessing

I remember your eyes, the shape of your nose, chin and forehead
I remember every individual freckle and the way your facial hair looks like a weather forecast of a hurricane.

I close my eyes and see your face from every angle
I remember the shape
The size of your hands
The shape of your nails
The teeth from your smile

Why do I remember you so much ...?

Your laugh, your smile, your voice, you talking to yourself.
When you once sang to me, when you once screamed at me.
The pain and joy from your eyes, your tears.

Why haven't I been worthy of all these blessings?
Why must everything go away like the stars in the sky?
Why have I been punished and Forbidden from this treasure that I found in you?

Why am I not welcomed into your heart as much as I made a bed for you in mines?

I see you and my heart starts racing
My brain starts crowding and then I realize that it's only my imagination
A trick of the mind
It wasn't you.

It wasn't you.