Cigarette Street Smoke

Cigarette street smoke remind me of a worthless memory
Deep dark eyes lost within a cheap soul
Cave man hands invaded with limitless selfish cardinal pleasures
A voice that lack precise literacy
Meaningless sympathy within that hard leather shell

A worthless memory that you are
Such a worthless heartache that you brought
Never mind what was said
Never mind what was felt
Dirt has more dignity than those days
The tuning of your promises should have been a hint of your record fallibility
A proposition to your incontinuity
Lack of Self opportunities
Just letting it die
Running quite out of its time
Never mind
Nevermind.

Fall

The Fall winds reflects the ever descending Heart's pain
The unwelcoming instant of cold thought
The echo of a Soul jumping throughout the walls of a Body
Burnt out from the attempts of Love
Now left to be shriveled and stripped of inspiration
Deceived from its Deepest Belief
Left without a tear of Hope in its process

Still

A fun time
But i still want a bullet through my head
Still want to kill what makes me breathe inside
Still want to lose that love in my mind
Dancing to sweat the night through
Yet I still think of stupid ass you

When will I learn that lies and deception
Ain't a form of love
When will I cherish these moments
Which make me whole

I guess it'll take me till I realize
I'm a fucking ass fool

Will I realize
I ask myself
When will I realize

That stupid ass you
And i'm a fucking ass fool
To ever to had trust you.

One's Unity

Mis-proportioned sense of stability
Constant state for that search of one's tranquility
Blinded by misguided voices
Quiet yet united choices
Diving form of consciousness
Palpitating heart
Stops
Skips that Beat again

Not Enough

It was not meant to be
Not enough to feed
Turning into what once was me
To the point where I cannot be free
Ever so still learning
With continuous endless yearning
It shall never be received
It really wasn't what I need

Stripes and Lines

Stripes and Lines
They never seem to intertwine
Intentionally to keep us straight
But they can't keep this soul right in

Time after time
After being so in depth within this mind
Enlightenment comes to play
Once dug out and placed in the sublime

However
Closer and closer
Demons begin prevailing
Switching lanes
Clawing in
A battle that seems so bitter
Memories that seem too sweet
Never to be a repeat
Spreads all over this scene
Endless hopes to end in the serene

Never Seen

Never enough of shine
Trying to keep you in this world of mine
Walking into the obvious
Waking into the predictable
One sided consciousness with a double-edged sword
Naively dead and bored
Quintessential for the forlorn
Blessings that will never be received nor worn
Thats' why I am so torn
By what I thought I had seen

This Week

So much heartbreak in a town like this
Once you begin it all seems like a bliss
Midnight distortions
Morning contortions
Evening reminiscences
Remain awake for it all
Don't miss that unnecessary beat
The city that never sleeps
Redundant after a few weeks
This town is intended to turn you bleak
So don't lose control within it all
You may lose your soul
Or you may choose it and pay that toll.

Pajaro

Volo y desaparecio
De mi Corazon
Y nunca regreso
Donde se fue
Donde se fue
Yo si se
Pero ya no se ve...

Temp

Diamond in the rough
Quickly traded for temporary pleasure
Stop making excuses
Avoiding the things you should Endeavor.

You'll Never Know

You'll never know
You'll never know
I am a gift
But my own worse curse
Every which way
In it's transverse

Wrapping in the moonlight
Burning in the sunlight
You'll never know
You'll never know
I am a gift
But you'll never believe

Creation with so many abbreviations
Abused and misused
And disposed of all at once

Withstand

Walking down the same old road that I walk through
Alone once again as I go downhill
Looking straight and seeing everything bland
Everything that I wish I could withstand

It's no more than it can be
It's no more to pretend

Alone once again
Walking the same old road and pretend
That' i'm not...
Alone and heartbroken
Alone with a heart broken

Where

Shredded time and unexpected disrespect
Slippery demise and I already forget
with every second as it takes its first steps
I wake up in this foggy regret
Never can one sole moment I experience the sound at its best

Undone

My heart is beating
And i'm afraid
The speed is coming
Undone
When I thought I would only be one
Then you came along and my world is
Getting spun
So undone
So undone

The endorphins are racing through my mind
It's better than any high at any time
Body's Shaking
It's better then any high I've ever tried
And it's undone
 It's undone

In Between

One Summer's End dream
As we both seeped in between
Brown and blue with a touch of green
The irresistible and the new
Perhaps it was meant to end up south

Lips touch in the seams
Tongues end up to be the theme
How it ends up to be
Lost and perceived
Secrets lost within creeds

Fates always greet
But always leave
In between
In between
Fates always meet
But always needs to depart
In between
In between.

Ever

Unfinished
Within the comparison
Of which end is better yet said
All of these continued obscenities
Unruly sense of proximity
Impulsive twice as repulsive
Inevitable human behavior
Lost difference between awake and the has been
Don't repair
NO, don't repair
Catalyst of my amnesia
Species of my temporary remedy

Dig It

Need that Head trip

Give it a whip

Snip it 

Full of shit

With continuity

Gratuity

You lack it

Can you dig it?

It's a stroll 

With a  toll for your soul

Submission

Remission

Give it a twist 

And you're in a new incision

It takes a while to figure out

Reality and deception

Protection and your own conception

Forget the the difference is

It's just that head trip

Makes

Music makes all of us

Heartbreak that motivates us

Moves and grooves its way to the best of us

The love that makes most of us

Trust

Hope 

Respect

Lack there of

Spiritual Digression

All of this

Plus the Retrogradations 

All that's Been Done

And it's all never been done
A home in a heart
And it all comes to one
Life in a broken dome
And all I ever wanted was a home
Within him
Within him
A home to sleep in
To love him
To be within
A need to inhale all that it's been

Christmas

The cold air blows our winter night's past
And all that remains are melodies
Crystal moons and twinkling stars
And sunrise cues departure

Smiles and deep stares
Condensation and Passion
Deep embraces and hard goodbyes
Yet my heart still didn't turn to ice
But all that remains are memories

I still don't fail to look at the sky
And greet those stars that saw our kingdom
Smile at each one as if they were my children
And thank God for your existence
And still, I continue to sing our melodies

Like he once sung
For you I'll wait , till kingdom comes
And one day my hope will arise again
But for now i'll wait till His will is done
And all that I keep for myself is distant memories

Carry On

It doesn't matter which lifetime we own
I will still be chasing you on
Your eyes look so familiar
And your voice from the interior
It plays sweet record melodies all night long
Maybe that's what you mean
Till kingdom comes
I will be waiting for you
So we can carry on

Blessing

I remember your eyes, the shape of your nose, chin and forehead
I remember every individual freckle and the way your facial hair looks like a weather forecast of a hurricane.

I close my eyes and see your face from every angle
I remember the shape
The size of your hands
The shape of your nails
The teeth from your smile

Why do I remember you so much ...?

Your laugh, your smile, your voice, you talking to yourself.
When you once sang to me, when you once screamed at me.
The pain and joy from your eyes, your tears.

Why haven't I been worthy of all these blessings?
Why must everything go away like the stars in the sky?
Why have I been punished and Forbidden from this treasure that I found in you?

Why am I not welcomed into your heart as much as I made a bed for you in mines?

I see you and my heart starts racing
My brain starts crowding and then I realize that it's only my imagination
A trick of the mind
It wasn't you.

It wasn't you.

Disappearing

Disappearing ...

And you'll never look back
You'll never say sorry
And leaving me with no hope
All I want to do is just not provoke
I wish I would, too
It's more than I can chew
In the middle of the day
why is it that way?
It doesn't make it okay
Even as I pray this song says
Go away, please go away
Don't come back to hurt me
Go away, please, spare this pain
Please go away until i'm not blind
Go away, don't go away
This indecision chains me
Glow away, just crawl away
Till i'm in my safety's hideaway

Don't go away, just go away
Disappear from me blindly

Amnesia

A mix up of names
Can't help it
They all played games
You and Him and Him and He
Can't get it straight
All did the same
A need for Amnesia
Cleansing of it all
Don't need to remember who you are
Don't Need to know that fall
Days so long
Nights so forlorn

Such a Hard Way

Such a hard way to live
Such an easy way to die
The door to freedom is an option
But challenges are more like my high

My demur is boring
As I see the lives fulfilled by others
Such a hard way to live
Such an easy way to die
When you're finally stumped in a useless life
Now you understand

Such an easy way to live
Such hard ways to die
Now that's the life I want to live
With no fears in mind
Such an exciting way to breathe
What a reason not to die

What a hard way to live
What an easy way to die
The choices are so easy
And that
My friend
Is no lie

It Was the End

I find it hard and seem to keep to think
That our love will one day have it's expiration date
That it will melt and fade as the distance keeps on increasing between us
You may not forget but my heart won't cease to ache
From being separated from one of my greatest loves once again
The strength of that bridge which keeps that affection between us
Just might break
Might break
You may not forget
You may not forget
But my heart won't cease to ache
Cease to ache